Imagine suffering a complete memory loss, an existential crisis that resonates with your first days on earth, when your mind was still a blank canvas having no knowledge of the inside and outside. Imagine losing any sense of who you are, who others are, and where you are. How would you move through the world and negotiate for support and protection? You would be like a newborn who knows nothing, being at the mercy of strangers to maintain your well being, but without an inkling as to their intentions. Your fear of the unknown manifested in nightmarish proportions.
This is how you came into this world, like a leaf in the wind, being blown this way and that way, subject to internal and external forces with agendas: some caring, some indifferent, and some hostile. Your life long journey initiated when you were helpless, having no knowledge or ability to understand, direct or defend yourself in an alien world; a complete and utter dependence on strangers and ambiguous forces to determine your earliest fate. Your first impressions of love and fear were created then and there, to perpetuate in a thousand ways until your last breath; your virgin psyche receiving its first and most enduring footprints from the whims of strangers.
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Notes from David 