There were ghosts from my past with whom I had no closure, including childhood bullies, former friends, deceased family members, ex-partners, lost loves, and one-time lovers. I once needed something from them to obtain closure, such as an apology, a thank you, a word of encouragement, a prayer, a smile or hug, or even pity sex as a final gesture of compassion. This did not happen though. They exited my life abruptly, without any effort to right what they had wronged. Explanations and solace were not offered, cries were left unattended, harsh words were not taken back, dignity was not restored, and threats were kept in place.
The once pristine and peaceful condition of not knowing these people could never be restored. I could not delete them from memory or reverse the impact on my life of having been with them. The remainder of my functional life was forever diminished by their ghostly presence, always lurking in the background. Pieces of myself remained trapped within those moments of abandonment, when I most lusted for the mercy of closure, but was deprived of what was needed for my exit.
Note: This composition is entirely fictional. All events, situations, circumstances, and characters depicted here are the products of my creative imagination. Any similarities between characters and specific people in the real world are purely coincidental and unintentional. My characters are composites of “possible” personality types, behaviors, and quirks that interest me.
© 2017 David M. Rubin. All rights reserved.
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